I'm Back!

Hey everyone!! It's been a looooong time since i've posted here and i missed it!

I've been sooooooo freaking busy with college you wouldn't believe it!! And i've been trough so much this last couple of months that i haven't had time for anything... but oh well, at least today I have a couple of minutes to write :).

My life actually became incredibly complicated for a lot more time than i wanted to, my college projects were going downhill, my only 2 classes last trimester almost absorbed every bit of me, the community service drove me nuts (it's still driving me crazy btw), my relationships were cracking and sadly my family and I had a terrible event... my grandfather died... so, as you can see, it was tough... i had a really really really tough couple of months... but, since I was in the bottom of the barrel I just needed to start climbing up to get out, and right about now I think I'm almost out.

The hardest part was, of course, my grandfather's death, specially cause even though I didn't have a strong connection with him, he was my ONLY grandpa, and I regret not having shared with him like I should have... The funny thing is that i'm not sad because he left us, i'm sad because I realize now he really was a big part of my life, and i'm figuring it out right now when it's too late... I miss him.
What comforts me is the fact that he was suffering, a lot... and he will never have to go trough that again, ever. And I'm not that kind of person who believes in heaven and hell, but I do believe in freedom of the soul and eternal happiness without pain or suffering after you die, so I'm sure he's just fine.

Yes, I miss him and I will remember him always, but I understand I have other loved ones living right next to me, and those are the ones I need to care about now.

Since I don't want to make this a sad post or anything, I'm just gonna move on and write about the other stuff... and this is the part when I freak out when I say: I'm graduating in June 2012! Yes yes, that's right around the corner for me, and I'm so afraid... but not because of the ceremony and stuff but because of the hard work I have to do before and the blank space in my mind of the AFTER... I mean come on... I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO!! I am actually freaking out right now, it's just the biggest question mark in my life... what the heck am I going to do afterwards???... I know I want to have a PhD, but I don't know what's it going to be about cause honestly, what i'm doing for my graduate project, is not what I want to do as an investigator... I'll just have to take a deep breath and relax until the idea pops up in my head...

Anyways, moving on, I'm taking up YOGA!! Yeap, yoga boys and girls, the "workout" i've been picking on since i've heard of it, laughing about since i saw it the first time... yeah, that one... who would have thought??
Why? you ask me, well because i realized I was a freaking nerve rack, ticking time bomb, sack of tense muscles, etc etc etc... and i needed and escape, and guess what... IT'S A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!! I'm reading a book i got which is sort of a guide trough basic yoga movements and easy routines for different targets and it's amazing, i love it! I've been doing it for about 5 days now (yeah, i know it's not a long time) but i've seen the results in my mood, in my stress levels and in my improvement of handling situations that would normally make me mad. In other words, it does work.... the breathing techniques and the concentration you need to keep up with the poses (not easy ones btw x_x) are super helpful. So, if you feel like you need a daily break from everything, try it, believe me it works!!

But hey, enough with the yoga publicity since i'm not getting paid for it (lol), I wanna finish up by saying I will try to keep up a lot more weekly posts and I will keep writing about my overall life goals improvement/discovery or whatever haha.

I Love You guys :).

Be happy!!

-B-

Whitening Results!

Hello everyone! For those of you who don't know, 2 weeks ago I decided to give it a try with Baking Soda to make my teeth a bit whiter and now the time is up!

Overall I do see a difference regarding the few stains I had in my teeth, which are now completely gone (hoorray!), nevertheless I can't really say they are whiter because, sadly, they're not.

Of course, brushing them every day with baking soda left them a lot cleaner than if I did not have done this and i guess now the color is absolutely even in each teeth, BUT, not whiter.

So, if you're thinking about doing this 2 week baking soda challenge I say: go ahead! Why not? Just don't expect professional whitening or whitening kits results because you won't get them.

I'm not uploading pictures of before/after because you can't really tell the difference in camera, like I said, it's pretty darn small.

Anyways, luckily this homemade treatment didn't give me any sensitivity whatsoever :), so if you want to try it, i'll leave you the 4 steps i did every day (once a day) below. 

Have a great night!!

1. Grab a teaspoon of Baking soda and mix it with a few drops of water until you have a paste.

2. Brush your front teeth with it.

3. Rinse your mouth and your brush with water

4. Brush normally with your toothpaste

Love,

*B. Doe*

How To: Newspaper nail art!

Hi guys!!
I made a super easy tutorial on how to achieve the newspaper nail look on my youtube channel! It's my first video ever so I'm super excited about it and I'd love it if you could give me feedback about it after watching it :).

What you'll need is:
- Nail buffer, i used the 7-way Buffer from Trim
- Base coat
- White nail polish, i used Valmy in Chalk
- Black nail polish (optional), i used Valmy in Black
- Newspaper cut-outs (one for each finger) at least the size of your fingernail, a little bit bigger is better
- Any clear top coat

Overall tips for manicure:

- Buff the surface of your nails before applying the first coat of nail polish, this will make it stay in longer

- Get a wooden pick or a cuticle remover stick and have it near by, use it when you make little mistakes to remove the paint right away while it's still wet. I find it easier this way and less risky, since you don't need acetone to clean up and there's no chance you can ruin the manicure

- Leave your thumb for last, as silly as it sounds, i find myself more comfortable painting my non dominant hand when my thumb is un-painted lol.

I hope you guys liked this tips and hopefully i'll talk to you next time with another video :)!

Love,

*B. Doe*

Back to School/College

So there's only a few weeks left to enjoy summer, relax and do everything you never have time to do or even nothing at all! cause school time or college time (in my case) is around the corner. And since we all like to start fresh and look our best this upcoming months, I figured I could put up some cute outfits to wear for the first day of class... of course, they can also be worn during all year long :).

I took simple pieces to create each outfit so you can pull them off easily with stuff you probably already own! And, if you like what you see, I'll leave a small description of where to find the item and the aprox price for you to go and get it.

Outfit #1: Easy and comfortable 

With this look you can run around from class to class feeling comfortable and looking cute and fun at the same time. The T-shirt and the shoes make this outfit super easy to copy since you probably already have a nice T and snickers like this ones. The earrings and the headband make you look more pull together, and the vest can always be replaced by a cardigan or a chunkier sweater if its too chilly to go out like this. 

T-shirt: from oqvestir.com.br (No price specified)

Jeans: almost famous destructive womens skinny jeans from tillys.com (35$)

Vest: saddy vest from gbyguess.com (35$)

Backpack: from Jansport

Shoes: solid tennis shoe from wetseal.com (15$)

Headband: glossy bow headband from forever21 (3.80$)

Earrings: swank grenade earrings from hannahzakari.co.uk 

Outfit #2: Cute and girly

This outfit is when you want to feel really pretty and hit the mall or a lunch date after class! The crochet and the floral pattern are two great choices to wear with this look, and depending if you're feeling a little bit more boho or fun you can match it up with some feathers or cute apple earrings. The ballerina shoes and the purse won't get in the way of your crazy schedule since they're both super comfy and easy to wear.

The denim jacket can also be traded for a cardigan or a heavier jacket in the cold fall days. 

Bangles: mixit set of assorted bangles from jcpenney (8.99$)

Top: crochet crop top from dressrail.com 

Top 2: rose radder top from modcloth.com (33$)

Jeans: women's hirise retro flare jeans from old navy (20$)

Shoes: motown suede square toe ballet from topshop.com (50$)

Jacket: cropped denim jacket from axparis.co.uk

Earrings: apple bomb from irregularchoice.com

Earrings 2: feather earring from zara (9.90$)

Outfit #3: Edgy-ish

With this look you'll be right on the spotlight! The fuchsia top with zebra stripes makes the whole outfit come to life! And to make it even more flashy, the faux leather jacket totally completes the look... of course, if you think this last item is too much, you can always wear a nice black jacket or sweater to simplify it.

The skinny black jeans and the bangles add a super cute rockery feel to it, and the black converse with the purple interior match perfectly with your purple backpack.

You can choose to change the converse from some lovely suede boots and still look awesome!

Jeans: YMI stretch extreme crinkle skinny jeans from 15dollarstore.com (15$)

Top: high low sparkling zebra print tank from stylesforless.com (15$)

Shoes: converse chuck taylor women's knee hi from jcpenney (45$)

Shoes 2: strappy suedette ankle boots from forever21 (20$)

Backpack: vans realm backpack from tillys.com (35$)

Jacket: women's lightweight cropped peacoats from old navy (45$)

Jacket 2: full tilt faux leather women's jacket from tillys.com (40$)

Bangles: glitter zebra bangle set from wetseal.com (7.50$)

Headband: soaring points headband from modcloth.com (15$)

Well guys, I hope you liked this post and hopefully it helped you for your back to school/college shopping list!

See you next time!

Any questions or requests for more outfits are welcome!

Love,
*B. Doe*

Random Beauty Tips

Well hello there!

Recently i've been looking for some nice products to fix different things that about my appearance that keep bugging me (LOL), and since i got such great results, I wanted to share them with you! :)

1. Pimples B-Gone

OMG you guys, this is like the most freaking helpful tip E-V-E-R!!!! I actually read this one in another blog called CreativegalT, and the only thing i regret is not having read it before!! 

Just use TOOTHPASTE and give it around 2 days, and you're done! The pimple is gone!!

All I had to do was, after washing my face at night before going to bed, I applied the smallest amount I could right on the pimple and rubbed it lightly until the color of the toothpaste was gone (you really do need the tiniest amount you can get). The next day the pimple was already like half it size, but even so, i applied a little bit more in the morning and later on at night i did it again. The next morning i had nothing! And I'm like dead serious with this... IT WAS COMPLETELY GONE!! 

And, if you're wondering, no, my skin didn't get all dry and hard, BUT, i can't assure you this won't happen to you... all I know is that it's totally worth the shot :).

2. Brighter Smile

I'm actually just starting to do this but I can see some results already. 

BAKING SODA is the name, and STAIN REMOVER it's the purpose.

I've read in sooo many places lots of techniques to get whiter teeth at home with stuff you can find in your own kitchen that seem so complicated... ugh... i just feel so lazy just by reading them lol... but then I thought about what my mom always used when we were little and wanted to give it try again. 

Just by brushing my teeth with baking soda once a day I get them to feel super clean and stain free! But, I must be honest and say, it's not a miraculous thing that make your teeth paper white, but hey, first: i only been using it for like 2 or 3 days, and second: the only way you can get them like that is with professional whitening or drugstore products :S

Anyways, I decided i will keep hanging on to the product for at least 2 weeks and see if it makes any eye catching difference. I'll take a picture from now and then to compare when I'm done, and, of course, I'll post it here to let you guys know how it went :).

3. Softer Hair

Due to several hair color changes i've made in the past couple of months, my hair is kinda... uh... mad at me, and it's very noticeable trough the split ends, unbelievable frizziness, lack of shine, etc etc etc, so i decided to give him a break and of course pamper him with deep conditioning once a week.

Nevertheless, it takes time to recover and I can't just hide in my room until the time comes when it's decent enough to be looked at in public, right? And that's where Mr Jhon Frieda comes up! 

The Jhon Frieda's Frizz-Ease product line is amazing!! I'm not sure i mentioned it in an older post but, seriously, I don't know what I would do without it. 

The Hair Serum Extra Strength Formula tames my hair like no other!! Just a dime size amount, like the instructions say, is enough to keep my hair looking super silky and smooth all day! So, if you have problems with your frizzy hair, you can put your trust completely in this product!!

PS: you need to check if it works for you better with wet hair or dry hair, for me, it depends on the weather outside: if it's hot, i apply it on wet hair; if it's cold, i use it on dry hair.

(And, if you're wondering, the deep conditioner i use is Bonawell's Hair Repair Cream Bath Deep Restore)

Ok then, i hope this random tips were helpful and don't forget to check out the Baking Soda results in a few weeks!!

Love, 
*B. Doe*

Enough with the heavy: tips to get over rough times

Hi everyone!

I don't know if you read my last post about all my personal problems right now (you don't have to), but I told you i would post some things I'm doing to try to keep a positive mind and just moving forward with arms wide open to embrace new opportunities. So, if you're living through rough times or need some advice to boost the positive energy then keep reading :)

1. Split your problems

If you have a lot of stuff going on right now then don't let them accumulate and drive you crazy, split your problems into little pieces and try fixing a few (if you can) so your big problem ball becomes a little smaller and easier to cope with! For example, if one of the things that's bothering you is your appearance than improve it!! Find new makeup, clothes or even a new hairstyle that makes you feel better about yourself so you can take care about the bigger problems. And no, you don't NEED to buy new stuff to do this, just work with what you have in your own home! Look around for tips to refresh your wardrobe and makeup and learn how to cut your own hair! Both the final result and the time you spend focusing on getting to it, will take your mind of the problematic situation and give you a boost of positive energy!

2. Makeover

Like i said, try out new stuff! Dye your hair, cut it, do your makeup in a different way, make new outfits from the clothes you already own, make your own jewelry, cut a t-shirt, you can do almost anything to create a whole new improved version of you or just to update the old one!! Don't be afraid to change, you'll see how good it feels once you do!!

3. Enjoy your friends and/or couple

This is probably one of the best advice I can give you, cause no one can support you and give you their honest opinion better than your friends (or gf/bf). So if it's been a while since you have spent time with them, then this is it! Go, have fun, talk about random stuff and, again, take your mind of the problems surrounding you, at least for one afternoon. This is so much helpful than you think. And yes, you NEED to talk to someone about it, cause if you bottle it up it will be a lot harder to deal with it.

4. Keep a positive attitude

This is sooooo important you guys!! If you let your problems sink you than there's no way they're gonna get better!! Everything, and i mean EVERYTHING will pass, every problem has a solution and everything happens for a reason... and yes, I know a lot of you wont agree with me on this but that's ok, everybody's got their way of thinking, and this is mine. Every little thing that happens in our life, no matter how ugly it seems in the moment, happens to make us stronger and smarter and aware that life is not easy, at all, but there's always a way to get out of nasty situations and learning lessons from them if we have the will and certainty to make it through the obstacle.

Go ahead! Think about it, and keep in mind this tips to help yourself get over a problematic situation.

I really hope i helped you a bit with this.

Love,

*B. Doe*

Just letting it out...

So, it's been a while since I've written on here and it has been very complicated this past couple of months... just a freaking emotional roller coaster with waaaay more downs than ups. University pressure and family issues are driving me crazy (of course i don't think i'm the only one in this situation, and that's why I want to let those people know how I'm trying to handle it in order to help them too), everyday something new comes up and it adds up to the craziness. Basically the problem is that I don't know what the hell I'm gonna do after I graduate, last year I had so many plans, everything programmed and now POOF! it's all gone...

NOTE: you don't have to keep reading if you don't want to, i'll write my way to handle the situation and some advices in another post... i just needed to say all this stuff out loud...

I planned on leaving my country to Canada and start my PhD there, of course, in order to do that I had to decide what i wanted to major in, learn French (cause i planned on immigrating to Quebec), get a job here to make money to leave, take my boyfriend with me and probably marry him before departure, finish my thesis on time to start applying for universities there and opt for a scholarship and so on... but from a few months from now everything just feels like it's crumbling right there in front of me, and there's nothing i can do to keep the pieces toghether...

The thesis: i'm actually hating it right now cause i just don't like it anymore as i did in a beginning, i don't want to do this the rest of my life and i'm just not motivated at all to keep doing it (but i have to if i want to graduate). Additionally, lately i'm feeling super depressed about the people i work with, it's like they're always looking over my shoulder to see what i'm doing, where i mess up to nag me and trying to "give me advice" that actually turns out to be pretty rude comments or just the same nagging with a different tone... UGGH! I'm sorry but i really hate it, i hate that they still treat me like the new girl when i already have like a year working there...

The language: now this part started to annoy me since this last couple of months... and i don't know why but seems like my brain just can't retain any more information! I'm taught a new lesson one day and the next day i just can't remember! It drives me crazy, i'm so frustrated with this cause right now i'm not even enjoying learning french, i feel like it's just an obligation to be able to live where i want to live and it's not recreational or just because i WANT to learn!! And, certainly, there's the comparison factor... i can't help comparing myself with others and it pisses me off when other students brag about what they find helpful online (like videos and articles and stuff) when if i wanted to i could find them too, BUT I HAVE NOOOO TIME!!! and it sucks cause, from the teacher's point of view, it doesn't matter how much free time you have, it only matters whether you do the homework and do extra stuff like that.

The job: i should probably have named this "what job?" cause that would make more sense.... I don't have a job!! And i don't have time to work in it!!! I have to do all sort of experiments and stuff for, yeah you guessed it, my thesis over the summer and there's no way anybody is gonna hire me if i tell them: "uhm yeah so i can only work on like 2 days a week for 4 hours cause i need to work on my projects...", so what the hell am i supposed to do?? And i desperately neeeeeeeed money!!!

The PhD: now this is a complicated part, and i'm just gonna say I don't know what i want to do, in fact, I'm not even sure i want to keep on with the same career I'm studying right now... yeah... rough hit... and I just figured this out like a month ago (i have almost six years studying the same thing)

So, maybe you have bigger problems than mine (i really hope you don't, i hope you have an awesome life i really do :)), but this are my biggest problems right now and I don't know what to do, i don't even know how to feel about all this... sometimes i just want to give up and just don't leave and have a happy mediocre life in a crappy country like mine... but if i do stay, i can't stay home... cause that's another thing that keeps poking me everyday in the back of the head... my family, no matter how much pain it brings me to say this, it's falling apart, the house is falling apart, the communication is falling apart, and i just spend all the time i am around locked up in my room to stay away from all the negative stuff going around me... bad words and two 16 year old kids (one of them being my mom btw... since she's with that f** bf of hers i don't recognize her anymore) is all I see... it tares me apart to watch this kind of behavior constantly and lately I've chosen to act like the mom of BOTH of them, but honestly I'm crying inside when i have to order my almost 18 year old brother and my own mother to do things around the house... i shouldn't have to do that...    .....

And maybe you're wondering about the marriage part, the one i wrote a while ago... well, let me tell you that marrying my boyfriend it's probably the only thing that keeps me from crumbling completely... and whether I'm actually scared of going on with it because we are still young (around 25years old each) and it's never gonna be the same as dating, I can't be more sure about wanting to do anything else in my life right now... he's the love of my life, and he has been since 6 years ago.

Now i just want to thank you... thank you for reading this huge post when I don't even know you and you don't know me, thank you for supporting me just by "reading" me, and please, don't go without leaving a comment, just say whatever you want, even if it's an insult to tell me i'm being stupid, anything... and honestly, thank you again for reading and standing my randomness...

Love,

*B. Doe*

I hate my clothes, what now?

Unless you've never repeated an outfit in your life or buy new clothes every day, this phrase might sound familiar to you:

I have nothing to wear!! I hate my clothes!!!

I've said that exact same words for the past couple of weeks... because it's true, i hate them :p.

So, what can I do?? Got 3 options:

1. Deal with it, pick an outfit with your eyes closed and don't look in the mirror for the rest of the day (yeah, haha, very funny)

2. Buy new clothes!! Nice... very nice... but what about the money you DON'T have... let's move on.

3. Reinvent your outfits... now this is interesting :).

Option number 3 is the easiest, inexpensive way to wear your same clothes all over again without looking like a freaking photograph!

First you need to stop doing, just like I had to do, the matchy-matchy thing. I mean, it's ok to want to wear accessories that match the colors on your shirt but, if you want to look different, it's time to change that.

An easy way to stop this is to dress with contrasting colors! This will not only make you stand out and feel completely different about the same T you wore last week, but it will also add interest to your outfit!

I stumbled upon a wonderful website that is actually made to combine colors for, well... a website. Still, it works perfect to create new outfits, only keeping in mind you might want to start by picking a neutral base color in your shirt like:

- White

- Black

- Navy

- Gray

- Brown

and then finding the right CONTRASTING colors to go with it!

I tell you, this has made wonders for me!! And since i've started like a week ago and i can't remember all the combinations, i just open the website everyday before i get dress and start mixing colors :D!

Here's the link, hope you find it useful as I did:

http://colorschemedesigner.com/

Love,

*B. Doe*